[Tuesday, January 20, 2004]
Hmm Happy Chinese New Year ^_^ By a stroke of luck (and Priya's enterprise) anat tutorial's shifted to next wk so there's no need to go sch tmr... :> On other notes, CA7's over and it wasn't difficult...
Went back to HC today for the first Mediquiz teaching session...it's a refreshing experience to teach other pple in this manner - you have to know ur stuff, so u don't end up giving other pple the wrong info or not knowing enough to teach them...not to mention that both would be rather embarrassing ^_^" Thinking back, I admire our seniors for looking so confident and knowing their stuff well...hope I can live up to their example. It's a good chance to revise stuff we've studied b4 too...grin it's beneficial for everyone I suppose ^_^
A few days ago, a friend commented to me that I can be "quite condescending sometimes", the remark stemming from me praising her for knowing sth I didn't. I meant what I said, just tt I guess she took it differently... =/ Today, I commented to a friend abt another friend's intellectual capability...disparagingly, and I meant it too. -_-"" (I'm being purposefully vague, dun ask who they are for both incidents) Which then makes me wonder abt my own attitude...since when did I gain the right to be high and mighty and look down on other pple? I dun doubt tt it's at least partially true, given tt it's not just one incident or one person mentioning it, and tt my actions certainly seem remiss upon hindsight. Zzz...I know not how to put it, but in a nutshell, I feel bad, which is why I'm typing this. Given that every person I meet and know is my superior in one way or another, what right do I have to criticise other pple or look down on them in any way? Have I forgotten that, or have I become a blind, arrogant #**$()$? :(
I know of at least one New Year resolution: to be more humble...
Oh and to be more punctual too. The left column's updated. I guess I deserve a few good kicks huh. ^_^"
jiat: Haha nah...I wrote the entry last last Friday after the campfire, just didnt put it up until Monday. Yah I know...need to shape up and be less blur from now on :p
cute_girl: Tnet's enough la ;) Gunbound on top of that would be...tough to handle ^_^" Haha I havent really played this year yet anyway...getting weaned off GB. :)
eN!L: I think so too... ^_^""" thanks for the kick too :P
[posted by Deepblue at 9:46 PM]
[Monday, January 12, 2004]
Merry Xmas, and Happy New Year too...my inaugural entry this year in my sadly underutilised blog. :P
Rough update on interesting things recently:
Went for dinner and HC's orientation campfire last Friday night w 4O. (cos I was sick of mugging)
Took the wrong bus for the 2nd time in less than a year...w new glasses o____o Last year it was mistaking 970 for 67, this time 177 for 67...which I inadvertently discovered, takes you to MINDEF -__________-"" Thought I'd never have to visit that place again at least for the next 5 years or so, only to end up on the only bus that does go there...hmm suay ah =p Luckily I managed to change bus to 970 and ended up only 5 min late to meet my friends for dinner. Huh...is it tt I'm cockeyed or blur or what? I could have sworn I was on the right bus, yet still ended up on the wrong bus to somewhere like MINDEF... So what if I leave a scalpel inside an incision next time even though I think I removed it? o___O""" Sheesh...I doubt anyone else at this age still makes this kind of mistake. (pls tell me if you do, might make me feel better :P)
Anyway besides me doing sth stupid like tt, the main point of the evening was going back to HC for the campfire; and ending up being bored...to the extent of discussing finding stupid things to do like act dumb, shout "fire!" and attempt to put out the campfire, or stand in a line behind the campfire/performers (w the whole audience facing you) and do stupid stuff, or (for Alvin to do) run up and grab the ball the performers were playing with then sprint off (he'd probably get quite far b4 anyone could catch him) - well yeah, you can tell how sian we were from the AA/dumb/crazy ideas we were contemplating.
Somehow you just feel rather out of place on such occasions nowadays...the pple you knew are gone and replaced by a sea of fresh faces engaged with their own concerns, the places you knew are changed and gone...what you once knew exists only in your memories now and not even in the exact same way in the memories of others - and you don't really belong anymore. Ironically, happy memories somehow gain a tinge of sadness when you realise tt however happy they were, they remain merely as events in your memory which fade as time passes by. I wonder if I'll feel this way abt my life when I grow old? To recall pple, places, and events of a bygone year with the realisation that they are forever more in the past. I have this theory that that's one of the reasons old pple are sad/go crazy or become senile, besides the obvious normal facts that their close ones are dropping like flies one by one and they're often left behind/neglected, their brains suffer degeneration as they grow old, and their bodies start failing. Perhaps it would be a kinder mercy for some to send their consciousnesses into the recesses of their minds, back to forgotten times and places where they once were happier. Shrug I wouldn't know for sure, considering I haven't ever had much contact w the elderly, rather ashamed to say. (My grandparents all died b4 I was born, and whenever I have opportunity e.g. during CIP, most of the time I can't communicate beyond things like "Ah Po, li ho bo?" Lousy man ^_^"") Perhaps when I'm old huh I'll know huh? That is if I haven't forgotten this theory by then...
Other interesting things...I haven't even played 1 hr of Gunbound yet this year :> (I succumbed to half hr or so some days ago) Tho I've begun playing Tetrinet again after a 1 year hiatus (corrupting a number of other medical pple to play too, and in the process of corrupting more ;))
School's started again and there's a CA this Saturday...Celebrate!! -____-
Finally getting to read "Notes from an even Smaller Island" by Neil Humphrey courtesy of Pei Lin...damn funny guy. About the only day of the week I read the family's free copy of Today with any consistency is Saturday when there's his weekly talk crap column...hehe ^_^
I might not have to quit kendo after all...there's a guy recovering from a shoulder injury putting his unused bogu up for sale at only ard $500 odd. With any luck, I'll be able to continue for at least this semester (my reason for not buying the ard $900 armour and quitting, cos I doubt I'll be able to continue kendo during 2nd year onwards)
side note: continue ignoring the very unupdated side column, will update after CA. Someone pls kick me if I don't.
N-de: huh...delete D2 man ^_^ get Tetrinet instead!
Anonymous: ??? I suppose asking who you are won't do any good...thought I was the one supposed to be Anonymous...? Hehe hmm.
[posted by Deepblue at 11:11 PM]